I went to the general store the other day and decided, on an impulse, to get a different brand of tooth paste for myself. It was weird and at the same time exciting to add it to my cart, after all, for as long as I can remember, I have been using the same brand of toothpaste, the same red color, the same taste. This morning while finally opening the new tube of shiny yellow green paste with cooling crystals, I felt like an adventurer out on her maiden voyage into the unknown.. 

Hilarious as it may sound, most of us don’t venture out of our habits and comfort zones even for something as mundane as a new kind of toothpaste. It’s not brand fixation that keeps us tied up, atleast not in my case. It is just the comfort of the familiar. 

Sadly enough, consumer products are just an example of what we are doing with our lives. I cannot speak for everyone, neither can I generalise (I hate to generalise, as it is). But I have to write about what sparked this seemingly unremarkable or ordinary sounding thought process. 

I read quotes like – “Life isn’t supposed to be lived in one place.” – and being a thinking person I understand how right that is, both geographically and intellectually. One has to travel, one has to explore, gain new experiences, let go of the things and people gone by.. One has to grow.. And people don’t grow while being confined to their comfort zones. 

One has to try different things, be different people in order to find what one actually is. Experimenting, juggling choices, failing, learning in the process- Everything is important

While I know all this theoretically, I have never dared to try my luck outside the protective cocoon of my family. I cannot remember a time when I wasn’t told what to do and how to do it. A set of instructions were always provided no matter what I decided to do. I understood quite early in my life that simply following the instructions provided, would save a lot of bad blood and complications. I did not know any other way to live. 

I had never learnt to live without my support structure. I had never been to a bank till I was forced to do that, at the age of 27 when I joined a job outside my hometown. I had never travelled alone, never taken a bus on my own, never even purchased my own clothing. Everything I needed was taken care of by my parents and the support structure that they had ready for me. I never thought I could have a say in my own life. I was meek, indecisive and confused all at the same time- a recipe for disaster

Eventually, I rebelled. Because it is crippling, too much love. It is suffocating. It feels like a leash. It leaves too less breathing space for us to grow. It breeds fear, distrust and some degree of lying and manipulating too. I developed a coping mechanism where I didn’t have to share everything I did, at home. I found new confidantes. I found solace in books. Sometimes my coping mechanism bordered on escapism. 

I once told my therapist (actually just a medical practitioner, I was talking to) that I am indecisive. I don’t know what to buy, what to wear, what to eat. I am left flabbergasted when provided with choices. That’s the reason I never order at a restaurant. I simply don’t know what to pick. I never learned to choose. He simply asked me, “Do you drive?” I said yes I do. “Do you ask the one sitting shotgun where to turn and which route to take to reach your destination?” I said, ‘mostly no’. “Then you are not indecisive” he said, ” you have to just convert that ‘mostly no’ to a resounding never”. 

Simple as that. So I started with the small things, case in point, my new toothpaste. I find a deep seated pleasure, now, in breaking stereotypes, the bigger things, none of that silly toothpaste stuff. I dream of taking it further. Life is too short to be left with regrets at the end. 

It is late but it is never too late to evolve, to give oneself a shot at happiness and fulfillment. It’s never too late to BE. 

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Comments
  1. saroj gupta says:

    Feelings of taking a decision all by ,yourself, is expressed by u very compassionately.I think u should be giving a daily blog in any national newspaper

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  2. Vaishali says:

    Excellent…..you write in a very simple and pure language, which attract readers like me who don’t do much of reading. What a brilliant thought on a very normal thing like toothpaste. loved it.

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  3. Shweta Jain says:

    Hi Lubhita ….first of all endless round of applause for this beautifully articulated writing of yours .Now , regarding the matter I should say yes, it is important to be more of you and less of them but without being selfish and self centred because we are bound with ppl in such a way that you need to do things out of obligation.But yes CHANGE factor has to be an important one…..which has inspired me a lot for raising the self confidence within me.love you dear as your quotes makes me believe in myself and start things from the scratch…..

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    • Lubhita says:

      Thank you shweta.. 😘 You have been really kind to my writing. As far as life lessons are concerned, you are right about the obligation we owe to ppl we are connected with.. You are awesome, my friend. ☺

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  4. priyanka bagadi says:

    Lubhi!! Your choice of words in framing the sentences always puts an impact on the readers…”IT’S never too late to BE”….very true n inspiring too..always a pleasure to read your blogs…looking forward to new one…

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  5. rupali says:

    Lubhita. Daarun Daarun!

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  6. rupali says:

    Lubhita. Daarun Daarun!

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  7. Vishal Singh says:

    nicely written with each word explaining itself. i 101% agree to what you have written and also inbetween lines. I would say you are courageous that you were able to overcome it and you enjoyed your act. your writing is always superb your words selection plus expressions are mindblowing veeeerry well written. infact this is need of current time and your story is not over yet 🙂
    What I am taking away with me after reading it is ‘its never to late…,’ keep writing

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  8. Kavia Prema says:

    It’s so true,we never want to come out of our comfort zone.Very well expressed what everyone experiences.

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